Weakness, Strength?

Weakness In life do you feel like you have a weakness? Maybe that weakness is a gift? I believe if you live in fear it’s because of a weakness. Maybe because it’s something you hide or something you don’t want to show? But what if your weakness was something you were born with? I know I was born with bipolar …

River

I cried a river in my dreams. I awoke in a puddle of illusion. I see clearly when my mind is focussed on eternity, When I turn and get distracted, I fall deep into my dreams. The river flows from my insecurities. I drift down lackadaisically in a high when I’m focussed. The river gets rough when my focus is …

Letting Go of the Fear

Fear is inevitable, fear could be the enemy. It could consume your life if you let it. I was afraid for too many years of my life living with my mental illness. Even to this day, when I meet someone new, it takes a minute to get the courage to say I have a mental illness. I guess there will …

ALONE?

-ALONE?- Am I? I can hear my voice. Can you? I know that you do. Is this praying? I believe it is. I need a healthy balance. Can you show me the way? I feel peace in this moment. I feel that we are one. I am not alone in you. I feel your presence. I feel your force. I …

Medication Compliance

What does medication compliance have to do with mental health? In my situation it’s crucial in my stability of life, living with bipolar disorder. I’ve been living with bipolar disorder for over 20 years. I wasn’t always compliant with a medication regiment. Why? There’s a couple of reasons for this. In 1995 when I was diagnosed and was released from …

Break

Break- When there’s a break in time, what’s in store? There is some kind of lesson, I’ve learned that before. The situation will present itself, it’s behind the door. Open the door and see the prize, it’s what you’ve been waiting for. Put your worries aside, the lesson will be over soon. If the lesson leaves you in the dark, …

No More Crutch

No More Crutch is a book written of poetry, writings, and feelings from the early years of my recovery living with a dual diagnosis. My dual diagnosis consists of bipolar disorder and addiction to drugs/alcohol. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 after a drug induced manic episode. I was going to an all night rave club in NYC …

Attuned

Attuned Searching for myself piece by piece, Like a puzzle scattered in front of me. Searching for a reason, So I can truly see. Clearing my eyes, The vision is there. Focus is there, Please don’t mind the stare. The new dawn is what I see, What does that mean to me? The dawn is the power of the sun, …

Truth

Truth- When looking for the light, Are you in darkness? When listening to the truth, Do you hear? When I’m going through adversity I’m always praying for an answer. I believe in order to hear the truth, We have to accept the light. The light can come to us through an understanding of acceptance. An acceptance that a change has …