Awakening-
What is an awakening?
It is a breakthrough from the inside out. It is a breakthrough of walls and barriers that we create internally.
What causes these walls and barriers?
Fear.
What causes the fear?
In my case, it is acceptance.
Why acceptance?
Because living with my dual diagnosis of bipolar disorder and addiction to alcohol/drugs there is a stigma.
Is there a stigma?
I’ll have to say, in my own mind.
In my case I put the fear of the unknown in front of me which builds the walls and barriers. The reason is, I don’t want anyone to judge me, but at the same time aren’t I prejudging?
That’s where the acceptance comes in. I have had an awakening in seeing my own stigma that I have put on myself. In seeing this awakening I have broke barriers and walls that I have internally.
In this awakening I have found, Freedom.
No fear.
No judgment.
How do you get to freedom?
In my opinion, Acceptance.
I feel once you accept yourself for who you are, so will the rest of the world.
Awakening.

No More Crutch is a book written of poetry, writings, and feelings from the early years of my recovery living with a dual diagnosis. My dual diagnosis consists of bipolar disorder and addiction to drugs/alcohol.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 after a drug induced manic episode. I was going to an all night rave club in NYC for three consecutive weeks abusing drugs and alcohol when I went into my mania. After I was diagnosed I felt alone and withdrawn from the world. When I started writing I felt at peace. It was my way of getting my thoughts all together in one place, which is saying a lot when you’re manic. The more I started to write the better I felt. It was and still is my way to express my inner feelings and take a good look at my inner thoughts.

No More Crutch is a compilation of these writings which expresses the hardship of living with a mental illness and addiction.

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Truth-
When looking for the light,
Are you in darkness?
When listening to the truth,
Do you hear?
When I’m going through adversity I’m always praying for an answer.
I believe in order to hear the truth,
We have to accept the light.
The light can come to us through an understanding of acceptance.
An acceptance that a change has to happen. I’ve found that many of us are creatures of habit, including myself. Knowing that, I believe that to get an understanding of acceptance we ultimately have to change to grow through the adversity.
Acceptance is the first step in all 12 step programs. That’s because if we can’t admit to the problem, change or recovery wouldn’t happen.
Believing that change can happen in life takes away the darkness and brings us to the light.
To hear, not listen, can bring us to the light of change.
I can tell when it’s heard, because the light is on.
When you hear is it on?
Truth-
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