Looking at today,
Was it good?
If not,
Was there focus?
I lose focus under distractions.
Distracting me to lose my focus.
The power of God has my focus.
Under that focus comes peace.
Peace is God.
God is peace.
Anything else is noise.
In that noise comes trouble because my purpose becomes polluted.
Peace, joy, and happiness is my purpose. Anything that takes that away is noise.
Because anything that can take away my peace, joy, and happiness without anything good coming out of it is a distraction.
It is very clear to me that God is my provider so I won’t waste away the day worrying about things that I cannot change. Because I will lose my focus, peace, joy, and happiness.


When there’s a break in time, what’s in store?

There is some kind of lesson, I’ve learned that before.
The situation will present itself, it’s behind the door.
Open the door and see the prize, it’s what you’ve been waiting for.
Put your worries aside, the lesson will be over soon.
If the lesson leaves you in the dark, the light will be at the end.
Remember to acknowledge the lesson and don’t pretend.
Because these lessons are needed and soon will end.
Be prepared for more, because that’s what our lives are about,
So be positive and let your answers remove the doubt.

What is the meaning of life?
When we’re born into this life, isn’t it from the act of love?
What separates us from this love?
A separation from God? A separation from ourselves? If we are made in his likeness, isn’t that the same thing?
I believe we are all created in God’s likeness and that we all are manifested from his love.
The reason I say this is because I was thinking about the human spirit and what drives it? Is it greed? Or materialism? If so, I believe we’re not living in that love.
If it’s acts of kindness or selflessness, then we are living in that love.
How are we to live in this way of being? Simple.
“Love each other as I have loved you”. John 15:12 NIV
My belief system is defined by Jesus Christ and his teachings. His greatest commandment was simply, love. I love the simplicity.
Why do all of us make life so complicated? Human nature, I guess.
In life, I believe we all have to be reminded to keep it simple. I know in my life with the hustle of living life on life’s terms I make this simple rule complicated. I always have to remind myself to keep it simple.

Practice simple acts of kindness.

I’m finding when I want to be creative and have no inspiration, it’s because of my ego.
A friend of mine from the past once told me what she believed ego stood for, “Edging God Out”.
When I think of that statement it really makes sense.
When you’re “Edging God Out”, you’re not attuned to the spirit. When that happens you’re only thinking of yourself. Then we build up walls around ourselves and aren’t able to release the negatives that grow inside of us.
When attuned to the spirit and not our ego, We are in harmony within ourselves. Because we are not only looking at ourselves but all of creation as one.
I believe when we are in harmony, we are all one. That’s what inspires me.
Have you ever been on a job working with others and the job goes easy?
Is it because you had differences, or was it because you were working together?
I believe the job went easy because you were working in unison.
That’s a lot like living within the spirit and not the ego.
As a creative person, when there’s no inspiration in my life, my life is not in harmony. That’s my indicator that my ego has taken over. My next step is to break down the walls, get myself balanced, and live within the spirit.
Breaking down the walls,
Letting go of the ego.
Watching as it falls,
My inspiration will show.

What is an awakening?
It is a breakthrough from the inside out. It is a breakthrough of walls and barriers that we create internally.
What causes these walls and barriers?
What causes the fear?
In my case, it is acceptance.
Why acceptance?
Because living with my dual diagnosis of bipolar disorder and addiction to alcohol/drugs there is a stigma.
Is there a stigma?
I’ll have to say, in my own mind.
In my case I put the fear of the unknown in front of me which builds the walls and barriers. The reason is, I don’t want anyone to judge me, but at the same time aren’t I prejudging?
That’s where the acceptance comes in. I have had an awakening in seeing my own stigma that I have put on myself. In seeing this awakening I have broke barriers and walls that I have internally.
In this awakening I have found, Freedom.
No fear.
No judgment.
How do you get to freedom?
In my opinion, Acceptance.
I feel once you accept yourself for who you are, so will the rest of the world.

No More Crutch is a book written of poetry, writings, and feelings from the early years of my recovery living with a dual diagnosis. My dual diagnosis consists of bipolar disorder and addiction to drugs/alcohol.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 after a drug induced manic episode. I was going to an all night rave club in NYC for three consecutive weeks abusing drugs and alcohol when I went into my mania. After I was diagnosed I felt alone and withdrawn from the world. When I started writing I felt at peace. It was my way of getting my thoughts all together in one place, which is saying a lot when you’re manic. The more I started to write the better I felt. It was and still is my way to express my inner feelings and take a good look at my inner thoughts.

No More Crutch is a compilation of these writings which expresses the hardship of living with a mental illness and addiction.

To purchase No More Crutch, buy here on Amazon

Searching for myself piece by piece,
Like a puzzle scattered in front of me.
Searching for a reason,
So I can truly see.
Clearing my eyes,
The vision is there.
Focus is there,
Please don’t mind the stare.
The new dawn is what I see,
What does that mean to me?
The dawn is the power of the sun,
It’s when I’m at my best,
It’s when I have my fun.
With each new day I feel the pulse,
I’m alive,
In the moment,
Attuned to the presence of the spirit, the force.
The force is what drives me.
God in his Glory.
He revived me.
Only through him I’ve been saved.
Without him I’m enslaved.
Freedom has a name,
My savior.
In him I’m attuned.
He was the missing piece.
-Jason Insalaco

When looking for the light,
Are you in darkness?
When listening to the truth,
Do you hear?
When I’m going through adversity I’m always praying for an answer.
I believe in order to hear the truth,
We have to accept the light.
The light can come to us through an understanding of acceptance.
An acceptance that a change has to happen. I’ve found that many of us are creatures of habit, including myself. Knowing that, I believe that to get an understanding of acceptance we ultimately have to change to grow through the adversity.
Acceptance is the first step in all 12 step programs. That’s because if we can’t admit to the problem, change or recovery wouldn’t happen.
Believing that change can happen in life takes away the darkness and brings us to the light.
To hear, not listen, can bring us to the light of change.
I can tell when it’s heard, because the light is on.
When you hear is it on?

When change is needed.
When the prayers are answered.
When your own strength isn’t enough.
Rely on God.
Pray for clarity and open doors. To see where you are going. We all need clarity in our own journey.
When your vision is clear and your prayers are answered.