Stability in Recovery

Stability in Recovery- When I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 1 and addiction I hoped for a stable life. Hope is an expectation of fulfillment. My new life with this dual diagnosis started in April of 1995. The first seven years of this new life was like an uncontrollable tidal wave. I was up, down, and all over the …

Break

Break- When there’s a break in time, what’s in store? There is some kind of lesson, I’ve learned that before. The situation will present itself, it’s behind the door. Open the door and see the prize, it’s what you’ve been waiting for. Put your worries aside, the lesson will be over soon. If the lesson leaves you in the dark, …

Love

Love- What is the meaning of life? Love. When we’re born into this life, isn’t it from the act of love? What separates us from this love? A separation from God? A separation from ourselves? If we are made in his likeness, isn’t that the same thing? I believe we are all created in God’s likeness and that we all …

EGO

EGO- I’m finding when I want to be creative and have no inspiration, it’s because of my ego. A friend of mine from the past once told me what she believed ego stood for, “Edging God Out”. When I think of that statement it really makes sense. When you’re “Edging God Out”, you’re not attuned to the spirit. When that …

Awakening

Awakening- What is an awakening? It is a breakthrough from the inside out. It is a breakthrough of walls and barriers that we create internally. What causes these walls and barriers? Fear. What causes the fear? In my case, it is acceptance. Why acceptance? Because living with my dual diagnosis of bipolar disorder and addiction to alcohol/drugs there is a …

No More Crutch

No More Crutch is a book written of poetry, writings, and feelings from the early years of my recovery living with a dual diagnosis. My dual diagnosis consists of bipolar disorder and addiction to drugs/alcohol. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 after a drug induced manic episode. I was going to an all night rave club in NYC …

Attuned

Attuned Searching for myself piece by piece, Like a puzzle scattered in front of me. Searching for a reason, So I can truly see. Clearing my eyes, The vision is there. Focus is there, Please don’t mind the stare. The new dawn is what I see, What does that mean to me? The dawn is the power of the sun, …

Truth

Truth- When looking for the light, Are you in darkness? When listening to the truth, Do you hear? When I’m going through adversity I’m always praying for an answer. I believe in order to hear the truth, We have to accept the light. The light can come to us through an understanding of acceptance. An acceptance that a change has …

Prayer

Prayer Pray- When change is needed. -Amen When the prayers are answered. -Amen Pray- When your own strength isn’t enough. -Amen Rely on God. -Amen Pray for clarity and open doors. To see where you are going. We all need clarity in our own journey. -Amen When your vision is clear and your prayers are answered. -Amen