Between peace and war is balance, It’s anarchy. No rules, Rules to be broken. Is it fun? Or is it forgotten? I’m alive in the balance, There’s a freedom. Between peace and war is balance,…
The end is the end, Of a beginning with no end. Live. Stepping into the Spirit, The fire burns, Cleanses the impurities, Sets the world ablaze. In the beginning was God, In the end there…
-ALONE?- Am I? I can hear my voice. Can you? I know that you do. Is this praying? I believe it is. I need a healthy balance. Can you show me the way? I feel…
Look towards the mountain, If you’re in the valley. It’s temporary, The valley. Look to climb and grow, The mountain. Once at the top, Enjoy the view, Your journey is won. Don’t be discouraged on…
Looking to a time when the time will stand still. -The judgment Will it end quietly or will the silence penetrate the walls and shake furiously? -The inner walls Will the fierce light penetrate the…
When there’s a break in time, what’s in store?
There is some kind of lesson, I’ve learned that before.
The situation will present itself, it’s behind the door.
Open the door and see the prize, it’s what you’ve been waiting for.
Put your worries aside, the lesson will be over soon.
If the lesson leaves you in the dark, the light will be at the end.
Remember to acknowledge the lesson and don’t pretend.
Because these lessons are needed and soon will end.
Be prepared for more, because that’s what our lives are about,
So be positive and let your answers remove the doubt.
No More Crutch is a book written of poetry, writings, and feelings from the early years of my recovery living with a dual diagnosis. My dual diagnosis consists of bipolar disorder and addiction to drugs/alcohol.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 after a drug induced manic episode. I was going to an all night rave club in NYC for three consecutive weeks abusing drugs and alcohol when I went into my mania. After I was diagnosed I felt alone and withdrawn from the world. When I started writing I felt at peace. It was my way of getting my thoughts all together in one place, which is saying a lot when you’re manic. The more I started to write the better I felt. It was and still is my way to express my inner feelings and take a good look at my inner thoughts.
No More Crutch is a compilation of these writings which expresses the hardship of living with a mental illness and addiction.
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Searching for myself piece by piece,
Like a puzzle scattered in front of me.
Searching for a reason,
So I can truly see.
Clearing my eyes,
The vision is there.
Focus is there,
Please don’t mind the stare.
The new dawn is what I see,
What does that mean to me?
The dawn is the power of the sun,
It’s when I’m at my best,
It’s when I have my fun.
With each new day I feel the pulse,
In the moment,
Attuned to the presence of the spirit, the force.
The force is what drives me.
God in his Glory.
He revived me.
Only through him I’ve been saved.
Without him I’m enslaved.
Freedom has a name,
In him I’m attuned.
He was the missing piece.