Weakness, Strength?

Weakness In life do you feel like you have a weakness? Maybe that weakness is a gift? I believe if you live in fear it’s because of a weakness. Maybe because it’s something you hide or something you don’t want to show? But what if your weakness was something you were born with? I know I was born with bipolar …

River

I cried a river in my dreams. I awoke in a puddle of illusion. I see clearly when my mind is focussed on eternity, When I turn and get distracted, I fall deep into my dreams. The river flows from my insecurities. I drift down lackadaisically in a high when I’m focussed. The river gets rough when my focus is …

Anarchy

Between peace and war is balance, It’s anarchy. No rules, Rules to be broken. Is it fun? Or is it forgotten? I’m alive in the balance, There’s a freedom. Between peace and war is balance, It’s anarchy. No rules, Rules to be broken, Loving every minute, I’m alive in the balance, It happens seldom, It’s anarchy, It’s freedom.

Letting Go of the Fear

Fear is inevitable, fear could be the enemy. It could consume your life if you let it. I was afraid for too many years of my life living with my mental illness. Even to this day, when I meet someone new, it takes a minute to get the courage to say I have a mental illness. I guess there will …

The End?

The end is the end, Of a beginning with no end. Live. Stepping into the Spirit, The fire burns, Cleanses the impurities, Sets the world ablaze. In the beginning was God, In the end there is judgment. Live, Repent, Live again in the Spirit. Free yourself of this world, Only by the Son. He has Won. Leave this world pure …

ALONE?

-ALONE?- Am I? I can hear my voice. Can you? I know that you do. Is this praying? I believe it is. I need a healthy balance. Can you show me the way? I feel peace in this moment. I feel that we are one. I am not alone in you. I feel your presence. I feel your force. I …

Medication Compliance

What does medication compliance have to do with mental health? In my situation it’s crucial in my stability of life, living with bipolar disorder. I’ve been living with bipolar disorder for over 20 years. I wasn’t always compliant with a medication regiment. Why? There’s a couple of reasons for this. In 1995 when I was diagnosed and was released from …

The Valley

Look towards the mountain, If you’re in the valley. It’s temporary, The valley. Look to climb and grow, The mountain. Once at the top, Enjoy the view, Your journey is won. Don’t be discouraged on your climb down, It’s a temporary visit, The valley. It’s life, Up-and-down victories. It’s life, LIVE.

A Life, with Mental Illness, Worth Living

Thanks to the effects of a traumatic brain injury and a couple other subsequent concussions, my memory can be pretty spotty. I have entire chunks of time that are fuzzier and less substantial that those white wishing-puff seed balls that dandelions turn into. Yet I vividly remember lying on my bed or sitting in a group room at the behavioral …

A Journey Through 20 Years

Today is April 5, 2015, and I am celebrating 20 years clean and sober from addiction. 20 years ago I was admitted to a psyche ward after weeks of abusing drugs and alcohol in a nightclub called “the Tunnel” in New York City. Which is a story in itself. Because of the abuse, I had a drug induced manic episode, …