Weakness, Strength?

Weakness In life do you feel like you have a weakness? Maybe that weakness is a gift? I believe if you live in fear it’s because of a weakness. Maybe because it’s something you hide or something you don’t want to show? But what if your weakness was something you were born with? I know I was born with bipolar …

River

I cried a river in my dreams. I awoke in a puddle of illusion. I see clearly when my mind is focussed on eternity, When I turn and get distracted, I fall deep into my dreams. The river flows from my insecurities. I drift down lackadaisically in a high when I’m focussed. The river gets rough when my focus is …

Medication Compliance

What does medication compliance have to do with mental health? In my situation it’s crucial in my stability of life, living with bipolar disorder. I’ve been living with bipolar disorder for over 20 years. I wasn’t always compliant with a medication regiment. Why? There’s a couple of reasons for this. In 1995 when I was diagnosed and was released from …

A Journey Through 20 Years

Today is April 5, 2015, and I am celebrating 20 years clean and sober from addiction. 20 years ago I was admitted to a psyche ward after weeks of abusing drugs and alcohol in a nightclub called “the Tunnel” in New York City. Which is a story in itself. Because of the abuse, I had a drug induced manic episode, …

Defeated?

Defeated? What do you do when you feel defeated? I don’t mean losing a game or a bout with someone. I mean when life seems to kick you around when you’re at a low point and leaves you at the curb. This might sound abnormal, but is this feeling “normal” for someone living with a mental illness? Living with Bipolar …

Living Life On Life’s Terms

Living With Fear  What do you do when you’re living with fear? It’s time to evaluate your life. What are you afraid of? I’m afraid of living life on life’s terms. That statement haunts me. I need control over my life. I know that control is an illusion but I still look for it today even after 20 years of …

Working With a Healthy Routine

My name is Jason Insalaco. I have been living mentally well for over 13 years. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 1 and addictions to drugs and alcohol in 1995. From 1995-2002 was a real struggle for me to keep a job for the long-term. In those seven years I’ve had every job imaginable and have lost every one of …