ALONE?

-ALONE?- Am I? I can hear my voice. Can you? I know that you do. Is this praying? I believe it is. I need a healthy balance. Can you show me the way? I feel peace in this moment. I feel that we are one. I am not alone in you. I feel your presence. I feel your force. I …

Medication Compliance

What does medication compliance have to do with mental health? In my situation it’s crucial in my stability of life, living with bipolar disorder. I’ve been living with bipolar disorder for over 20 years. I wasn’t always compliant with a medication regiment. Why? There’s a couple of reasons for this. In 1995 when I was diagnosed and was released from …

The Valley

Look towards the mountain, If you’re in the valley. It’s temporary, The valley. Look to climb and grow, The mountain. Once at the top, Enjoy the view, Your journey is won. Don’t be discouraged on your climb down, It’s a temporary visit, The valley. It’s life, Up-and-down victories. It’s life, LIVE.

A Journey Through 20 Years

Today is April 5, 2015, and I am celebrating 20 years clean and sober from addiction. 20 years ago I was admitted to a psyche ward after weeks of abusing drugs and alcohol in a nightclub called “the Tunnel” in New York City. Which is a story in itself. Because of the abuse, I had a drug induced manic episode, …

Realization

Today I had a thought. I think it comes with awareness. I realized, I complain about life sometimes. I complain about my mental illness, silently. I complain about money. I complain about my job. I complain about people who complain. It’s a weakness. It can become a sickness, if you let it. But, there is a bigger picture. Have faith. …

The Question?

Looking to a time when the time will stand still. -The judgment Will it end quietly or will the silence penetrate the walls and shake furiously? -The inner walls Will the fierce light penetrate the soul and shine like gold or will the residue be like ash? -The self-reflection Or is this the judgment that was taught? -The question

Defeated?

Defeated? What do you do when you feel defeated? I don’t mean losing a game or a bout with someone. I mean when life seems to kick you around when you’re at a low point and leaves you at the curb. This might sound abnormal, but is this feeling “normal” for someone living with a mental illness? Living with Bipolar …

Living Life On Life’s Terms

Living With Fear  What do you do when you’re living with fear? It’s time to evaluate your life. What are you afraid of? I’m afraid of living life on life’s terms. That statement haunts me. I need control over my life. I know that control is an illusion but I still look for it today even after 20 years of …

Working With a Healthy Routine

My name is Jason Insalaco. I have been living mentally well for over 13 years. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 1 and addictions to drugs and alcohol in 1995. From 1995-2002 was a real struggle for me to keep a job for the long-term. In those seven years I’ve had every job imaginable and have lost every one of …